newmexico Asks ...
I have had double depression since I was in a car accident when I was 18. I have been off and on disability and have tried multiple medications, ECT, therapy, etc. I am usually mildly depressed. I haven't been able to sleep normally in years. I have no interest in sex. I have difficulty spending large amounts of time with people or in large groups. I have a flat affect. I don't believe anything will ever help.
Loren Gelberg-Goff Says ...
I am very sorry for all that you have been going through. I do not know how long your depression and disability have been part of your life, since you don't state your current age...but it sounds like a long time from everything that you have been through. There is help available to you and hopefully you'll be able to access it easily.
When people are depressed it's hard to believe that anything will help, mostly because there's no magic pill that makes your pain and your past traumas disappear. All treatment modalities do take some time, but there are effective ones.
You can start with EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique). You can google it as there are many free demos that you can look at to become familiar with it, and seek out a practitioner who can work with you to release the trauma and help heal you from within from the depression.
You can also go for Neurofeedback session (eeginfo.com) is a good place to start. this does require a licensed practitioner, but eeginfo.com will help you to locate a practitioner near you.
I would also recommend hypnotherapy (look into www.wellness-institute.org) Again, the style and focus of the therapy will help to determine how you get through and past your past trauma, the residual effects and how you function going forward.
Please look into these options as I do believe that they will prove to be helpful. I wish you all the best, and please if you need to relax and unwind, you can always check out my free audio meditations that are on my website and see if they are helpful to you in getting through difficult moments... www.wellfromwithin.com I wish you all the best, Loren