Waiting On The Bottom
anonymous Asks ...
I am on a very bad 3 week binge right now and my wife has kicked me out so I am staying with at a friend's basement but he just told me his wife is giving him a lot of pressure and I am going to have to find somewhere else to stay real soon. I am out of work and the way I look right now there is no way anyone is going to be giving me a job. I also skipped a probation check in for my last DUI cause I am not supposed to drink and there was no way I could hide it. There is probably a warrant for my arrest right now. My next stop is going to be the street, pretty much and even now I can't stop drinking. I keep waiting for rock bottom and something that is going to make me ready to quit but it never comes. I don't understand, how much worse does it have to get?
Florence Cameron Says ...
Oh yes, it can get worse. Go to the AA rooms and listen to the stories. My question to you is why wait for it to get worse. Get help. If not now then when? Addiction is a disease of the brain. Because you are intoxicated you are not going to understand it and your best efforts have brought you to this point. It is time for professional help. The best advise I can give you is to be honest. Go into a medical detox facility, as soon as possible to and get safely detoxed, then check into a treatment program. There are some non-profit programs that are state funded which will take you based on a sliding scale. Once you get settled in call your probation officer and tell him/her where you are. The most important thing right now is you getting medically detoxed and into treatment. Until you can get your head clear and out of the alcohol haze you can not make any rational decisions and you are a danger to yourself. The other option is to ignore this advise and keep doing it your way. You can detox in jail 'cold-turkey' without any medication to ward off the withdrawal symptoms and risk dangerous if not fatal seizures. Either way you will suffer the consequences of your behavior. I hope you see that your choices are no way to live and ultimately find and sustain sobriety in your life. Find a good sponsor and embrace the AA program. Many people have gotten their lives back and I wish that for you. All the best.
Jeannie Cameron, LMHC